An END is a START

so, my life is about END for a STORY and STARTING a NEW ONE..... but the speed keep increasing... End up many PLAN still waiting in the listed, but almost FORGET all those old PLAN... and KEEP rushing for those NEW PLAN....

ARH...... i had done one FAN-FIC for BIGBANG, and this is just a starting point for BIGBANG fan-fic.... there will be more... i know, but cant help.....my mind cant shut up when i read the lyrics, my brain wont stop function when i watch their MV..... it just.... ended up stucking in my MIND which cause insomnia... @.@

nar.....so the NEXT plan will be the MAGNET series.... ToT it became a series now... ITS BAD THAT I CANT CONTROL MY MIND!!!!!!!! those image keep flowing in my MIND!!!!!!! i even had the background linked them all together!!!!!! so IT WILL BE A SERIES INSTEAD A SEPARATE STORY I HAD THOUGHT FEW MONTHS BEFORE!!!!!!!!!

it had became reality now, i cant help but just done it step by step... it will be ok... i know.... *cried* but it's fun though... and i will have a photo shooting for this series =x= if i really done it well..... so there will be 3   PAIRING in Magnet.... and hope that i can tried my first fantasy background setting.... hope so...*stares at the sky*

I WONT GIVE UP SINCE I GET SO MANY THING FROM DOUJIN WRITING and I REALLY DID ENJOY IT!!!!!!

STORY is nothing but LIFE

儿子~我真的没在怪你哦~

总觉得我的人生因为某个人的关系完全颠倒了，是幸还是不幸，谁知道呢~

是拉，让我的人生观改观了（认识了这世界上其实还存在着许许多多的萌点），让我发现原来我们的世界并不只是黑白两种颜色，而是充满了色彩的花花世界，让我进入了有着热情梦想的天地（也顺道带我巡视了许许多多的深坑），让我找到了自己可以做到的事情，让自已第一次有了其实自己是很有用的...

独自一人承受了许许多多的负面情感，本人的18年来都是黑灰色，孤单背影独自一人在深夜在冰冷的被窝里低声哭泣着。知道世界上的人其实都是单独的个体，也知道自己并不是很好相处的人，所以我从不埋怨什么，只是为自己的悲伤的悲伤。

话说，这篇文不是应该在吐糟吗？为什么路线一变，变成悲文啊？！

回来回来~~

所以说还是同人的同伴和腐友最棒了~~因为我们之间就永远都是未填完的深坑，和等着拉其他人一起跳的深坑，毫无节制的预定编排，和永远都在增加的预定和自己往下陷的同人坑文......无言中。

所以说~~儿子~我真的没在怪你哦~

认识了BigBang，让我对于2次元的男生原来还有好物~让我重新燃烧了斗志！！爱上了太阳更是让我对于攻受位置一再质疑~而某龙更是难得一见的万能受~

啊啊~~~同人同人~~文字文字~~妄想妄想~~你们是我唯一能安心的啊~~*虽然预定总是让我无限期地担心中* OTZ

所以结论：

钱包君！！！！！！对不起！！！又让你变瘦了！！！！

Cant Stop but LOVING YOU MORE

this is the only way why i can still BREATHing and live like a normal person....  DREAMING is the only thing i can rely on.... you can say im stupid or what... i doesnt care, since this is the only way i can live with... that's what im....

i know im just a normal girl (properly an ugly girl), but that's why all the negative emotions easily found me... JEALOUS the FIRST... hate myself for that... ALWAYS, but my mind n heart cant keep itself still... and it always bring myself trouble....

as always, my mind will always as clear as crystal when i lying on my bed every night before i slept.... and the mind will keep running out those thought... and drive me into deep black hole... SCARY...

every time when i saw u, there's only one thing came into my mind....

im nothing but a normal person, i cant even dream of myself standing beside you... you're too shine, as shine as the sun which always shone the world with it warmth... cant help but keep falling for you...

难道就不担心那名歌迷不能安全离开演唱会场吗？？

请去厕所！！！！！

天啊！！！！！怎么办？！！！为什么我只能在电脑前面狂叫还有心痛落泪？！！！！！！！真的觉得好无助哦！！！！！！为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么？！！！！！！

因为这么一个短片，让我再一次认证了很多件事

原来我真的这么喜欢太阳

原来我真的很喜欢很喜欢太阳

原来我真的很喜欢很喜欢很喜欢太阳

原来我真的这么疯狂地爱着太阳

原来我竟然是自己认为很白痴的疯狂粉丝

原来我对太阳的坑是这么深的

原来..........

为什么我不是韩国人？？？？？第一次这么伤心啊！！！！！！

完全不知道要怎么写这篇网志了啦！！！！！！

结论：

唯一的希望是你啊！！！！我的同人！！！！