CRAB & CRAP by someone =x=

one XXX called me this morning....
we chat for one hour ++
quite fun all the time....
but at the most end...
i become....
mad? nop....
angry? ... not really...
just felt bad...
very very bad...

He keep telling me that learn how to forgive and forget...
it's been so long that i felt that way...
since i din meet anyone else...
or do anything to anyone...
i just stay at home for over 2 months plus....
so...
what he told me is just CRAP at the end....

i want to forget too...
about those memories...
i want... really really want to...
but they're still there...
stay inside my mind....
stick there steadily...
not move even an inch....
but he keep teeling me...
learn... you must try first...
so, i din try before? do i?

nah...
today just another crap get into my mind...
and this make me crabbing...

NAH!!!!!!!!!!

一封信：洛小炜へ （小爱与小艾）

嗯....

很记得那时我第一本的BL小说吧...
可是小炜啊小炜~
该怎么说呢？
那本书真的是开始...
我并不知道自己买了哪一类型的书...
我会买是因为洛炜这两个字而已~
可是...
里面的故事
不单是我喜好的那类型
而且！！！！
呵呵~~
从此之后
我就一头栽进了BL世界~~

说真的
我很向往那种感情
就埋于心底，默默付出，不惜任何代价，即使被伤害
加上他们之间不只是阶级的差别而已
那时的小艾很单纯
他虽然是被创造出来
为了保护小爱，爱小爱
但是那所谓的朋友却让小爱误会小艾
更使出奸计让小爱逼迫小艾
让小艾在身心受创的时候
离开了他该爱、保护的人
以及创造他、教导他的人

哪...
小炜啊~~
当我从头开始看起时
我真的从新爱上这故事
而且很期待结局会怎么样~
虽然在第2集的时候
小爱和小艾都得到了对方的爱
对于以前谁对谁错
都放下了
但是危机却还没解除
更让剧情白日化
但是...

小炜...
说真的
在这么多的结局中
我从没有想过你会用这种
每每在读你的小说的时候
都很沉醉、享受
有哭有笑
但是每次的哭，都是属于喜极而泣
为什么这次要破裂呢！！！
我到最后一刻
在小艾要死的那一刻
我都希望
下一行会是某人的出现
将小艾给救回
可是
没有！！！
什么都没有！！
小艾最后是躺在小爱的手掌上
身体非常地虚弱、辛苦
真的
看到那里时
我刻刻都在希望某人的出现
我一直在想
“小炜，这会是一个美好的大结局吧...是吧...”
可是没有...
小艾离开了
连残骸都没有
在那人人都为小爱庆祝的那个晚上
小艾永远地离开了...
小爱则学习坚强，独自地活下去
并认为那月光
不管是在白昼还是晚霞
都会陪伴在他身边....

哭...
久违的哭泣
为了那短暂的爱恋与陪伴
为了那默默的付出
为了...

First day out after my Operation

My New Year Shoes :P
hehe~~~
long time din shopping already...
and din eat McD for 2 months plus :P
so Pinkie ask me join her and have lunch with her friends at McD ^^


4 girls...
from 3 different high school, 2 different primary school :P
high school -- SMK TBM, SMK KB, SMK MJRL
Primary School -- JJ and K1
= =|| all short form neer~
it's ok u dun know :P since it's kinda private O(∩_∩)O
girl's day ^^

we went to Shoes City after we reach Jusco...
that's why i'm out that day :P
actually i want to buy a shoes...
a high heels.... very nice T.T
but when i get there...
have no size T.T
feel so bad...
but never mind...
i found another pair of shoes :P
the pic, left hand side...
isn't it so nice ^^ hahaha~~

after that...
we watch a movie...
Spy Next Door...
it's funny ^^
the kids are really cute and hot XD
haha~~

after that, we play some games over there...
and my right hand ache T.T when i get home...
HAHA~~

Thanks!! CBS!!! Moonlight Maybe coming BACK!!!

wow....
what a GOOD news!!!!
Moonlight maybe continue with it's second season!!!
miss Mick and Beth so much!!!!!
:P
thanks to all the fans who support moonlight and keep send in their comment about moonlight ^^

still remember that when i first watch this show...
it brought me quite an impact....
when i finished the first epi...
my mind just pop-up one thought...
"OH MY!! Awesome!!!"
then?.?
i finished the season one in only 3 days....
T.T what next?
of course searching moonlight get to know more about it !!!
but what i get was....
Moonlight Season 2 XXX
arh..... poor Moonlight....
then i kept searching for more information...
and i get few cause and join ...
i start using me broken english ...
to write a short comment to CBS or something related....
ya....
and this is what we get ^^
maybe it still not 100% confirm YET...
but i think those director and stuff knows that Moonlight is just GREAT...
please...
Moonlgith T,T

その執事、終章～最後の晩餐を貴方と共に～

2nd row (left to right) - Lau, Ash, Bard, William, Agni, Dorseel (gold haired), Druitt (in front Dorseel), Abberline, Finny
1st row (left to right) - Soma, Sebastian, Undertaker

感動です！！！
黑執事のキァスト達は最高、最強！！！
小野大浦-Sebastian Michealis
坂本真綾-Ciel Phantomhive
諏訪部順一-Undertaker
。。。 。。 。。。 。。。
=w=

The Event that held at Japan International Forum Hall A is Superb!!!!
total 11 cast attend for that Event...
is sooooooo nice, funny, and touch...
i kept repeating :P
no matter how many times i watched...
i will feel the same feeling as always....
those funny part...
"moe" part...
touching part...
:P
that event is GOOD SUPERB!!!!!
especially all those corner...
Sebastian Corner was GOOD~~~
White Butler VS Yellow Butler
haha~~ got few battle going on....
butler as robot, as someone who have been lie by someone, as someone who fight for 24 hours, pantomime (cast but cant talk = =||), wrestler and 河童(i dunno how to translate, it's some japanese monster...legendary ) ....
butler as 河童 = =|| this is cast for Druitt

Cast for Soma, Butler as Pantomime

Cast for Lau, Butler as Robot :P



and also table cloth bettle :P
"Ash" and "Bard" from team White Butler have both beat "Agni" and "Undertaker" :P

"Bard" won "Undertaker" =o= did you see Undertaker lying there~~ (bottom left :P)

all of them came and checked whether the silverware

"Ash" won "Agni" :P

then they ask "Sebastian" show to them since in the animation "Sebastian" had done it perfectly =x=
then they put 2 table closely and ask "Sebastian" challenge 2 at the same time
Obviously .... He Missed XD



another my Fav corner was "Want Cast to Say this Dialogue"
the most unforgettable was "Lau"," neow =w= "
DAMN Cute

AND there are more Dialogue is very "MOE" XD
like
Sebastian, "... Let's Eat!"
Soma, "...Agni, without you, i'm useless..."
Abberline,"... i will protract you..."
Ash, "this that this that.......... like it..."
Druitt, ".... all of you girls make my heart beat madly, black hair, brown hair, pure type, sexy type, cute girl, beautiful girl, i want to hug this hall include you all~"
Undertaker, "From now on, your body belong to me... arh... let's me check it little by little yoh~"
"Undertaker" post like this after he finished his dialogue, it's a post for Japanese's pro bowling player :P

the next corner was Cast Shuffler :P
Damn Funny!!!!
there got few Scene...
the dialogue and cast have change a lot ...
that's made some serious scene become very very very funny and quite shady and Moe
=w=
and the Seacond last scene is 3 part from the animation...
all about Druitt :P
he only got 3 part important...
first is the Ice-Market part, about the North's Ark , shuffler by "Agni"
Second is the Curry Warrant Competition, curry made by Agni, Shuffler by "Abberline"
Last is Curry Warrant Competition, Curry made by Sebastian, Shuffler by "Lau"
this part is !!!!!!! lolz...

The next is Live Cast Drama..
Is about Sebastian want choose a new butler from 10 of them to accompany Ciel...
lolz!!!! is nice ~~~~ :P

End of the Show.... ^^



- Ending POST - =x=

Happy Birthday~~

Happy Birthday ^^
so now, i'm officially an adult...
so?
i can smoke, i can drunk, even hang around in clubs or bars...
haha...ya...
but...
i will smoke, maybe few week once...
i will drink, but not drunk and drive...
i will have fun in clubs and bars and of course take care of myself...
ya~ i still have my responsibility to myself, my life, my future...

thanks you, dude...
i'm happy that you guys send me wishes...
through phone, FB or others...
but what i want the most is always ...
still miss one wish....
the wish i want the most...
but it's ok... i know why you cant sms me...
^^ but when you get back, i will celebrate with you = =+
personally... hehe...

what's birthday feel like?.?
normal day....
everyday is just the same.... for me at least...
since i din even leave the house :P
yaya...
sorry **to someone** about yesterday...
actually i planning to hang around in Time Square....
to check on someone = =+
but... LAZY!!! lolz~~
**it's so lucky that he doesn't know my blog and i believe that he will NOT know**
and i jusr spend my time without realize i actually want to go TS...
but when he sms me...
haha.... finally remind me T.T
yaya~~ SORRY!!!! bad-temper-old man = =
hei!! how can people said himself is a present!!! = =||
how thick is your face is it thicker than the Great Wall,China ?!!!
lolz... maybe... haha~~

what's is so special about birthday?.?
cake and present of course = =
here you go...
the cake i choose myself, the present i made myself ... lolz~~


**mousse cake ^^v

isn't great?!!!
haha~~
at least i spend some time with Sebastian, as my Favourite ^^
lolz~~ love Ono Daisuke SOOOOOOOO much...
love Sebastian the most, then Nikaido Akira x Shirogane the next....
Monochrome Factor is the first Yaoi in my adult life = =+
and Sebastian is always the BEST!!! ^^
COOL!!!

chat with SC sis....
she said i had change in my chara...
dunnno :P maybe she realize since we quite close recently...
sis, is ok ^^ you're sooooo nice and cute...
you will find the most lovable person in your future ^^
left the past behind our back...
and keep going on with your step ^^
i will always by your side....
no matter how, you is my sis ^^
and let's become more courage together ^^
and get your happiness with your hand ^^ GAMBATEH!!!

next... chat with jess...
her first day in collage...:P
she feel unease...
never mind...
it's a brand new environment ^^
don't care about others ^^
you have your own style that others people don't ^^
if someone bully you, i will punch them = =+ like i promise XD

who's the next?.?
lolz.... a rare person = =
WJ bro....
long time no chat with him = =+
why?.?
hei man...
he always call me around 2300 = =||
is not my fault k, my habit is that rest at 2200....
but?.?
new record in my adult life...
first day overnight = =+
lolz...
actually he did call me the day before my birthday....
but.... like normal, i always missed his call :P
hehe~~ so we chat around 1 hour... **sooo short = =||
never mind...
because he used to get me through my 017...
but since that number is out of credit and i LAZY to charge that phone = =||
haha~~

so when we say goodbye....
it's already 0020 something...
then i sms Mic, want to apologies for the TS thing...
so, i ask him whether he got online or not...
what he said, "you cant find me although i'm online = =+"
old-man , what will you play only FB like others = =
so, Mic actually taking of his farm = =
never mind...
i on my character = =
then he joined me = =
he want bring me to higher lv to lving....
= = so stubborn .... i keep saying that i miss the monster, so i cant get any exp = =+
arh!!! he keep trying = =+
then he ask me to do the main quest... lolz~~
i already done the main quest in that map... lolz...
like always, it's already 0300...
i keep asking him go to bed = =
but he just ignore me and replied me, "what's your next quest gonna to do..."
OMG!!!!!
so.... he accompany me (or me accompany him ?.?) until 0500 T.T
and now i'm still sleepy @.@ **panda eyes + yawning
and what?.? my mum and dad scold me = =+
first day scold by parents in my adult life...
lolz~~
i think.... i get cold...
fever.... and my nose T.T
erk = =||
but just because the TS thing and almost 1 week i didn't play with him....
so... i wont complain..
and he should be the one complain...
because... he got to work... SORRY....

Thanks you guys...
from now on, it's brand new Ping... ^^v


-花蝴蝶。旅途

躲藏在那脆弱的蛹中
静静地承受着暴晒、风雨
小小毛虫还是坚信着
总有一天
展开幻丽的羽翼
将花粉粘在曾到过的花瓣上
最后
停留在那迷幻的花园

代表这梦想的罂粟
被彩蝶粘上一粘
在这现实的生活了
彩蝶找到属于自己的
停泊港口
让那疲惫的羽翼
重新换上不同的色彩
再披上战衣
开拓独特的道路

代表无双的蓝蔷薇
是努力辛苦得来的奖赏
即使踏过无数凋谢的花
但那耀眼且艳丽的蓝
在彩蝶的眼前绽放
早已安抚了彩蝶那
伤痕累累的彩翼
重新粘上艳丽且自信的蓝
彩蝶继续找寻迷幻的花园

代表回忆的红花石蒜
又名彼岸花
灿烂夺目的红
是记载了彩蝶曾洒下的花粉
一点一滴
配上无数的泪
与甜美的蜜
纯红的花
披上了一层神秘的纱
彩蝶将纱取去
为自己翩上了那耀眼的红
再次往迷幻花园出发

Happy New Year!! 2010 ^^v

11 more days...
and i become an adult :P (officially,haha)
i always want to become an adult....
although many friends said that,"you will regret to be an adult when you are adult..."
i heard that so many time from different people... = =+
yaya~~
i know... but that only one possibility...
maybe i did not have the same thought :P

ok...
finished my high school senior year...
so... where should i go?.?

got some of my friends are going to National Service tomorrow...
and i should one of them...
but i did not go...
at least not tomorrow... :P
i have been delay...
from doctor's instruction...
i need to delay...
and 21 January(Qii's Birthday :P), i got an appointment with doctor...
so scary T.T
wish you guys who going to NS -- Wenz, Fun, Jing Ying, Yun, Xin Ni, etc etc etc -- can have fun and be careful....

now....
what is my next step ?.?
hehe :P continue my piano lesson ~~
I FEEL GOOD~~~
I WANT TO TAKE EXAM!!!!
FIGHTO!!! OH!!!
hope the administrator can allow me to register for the exam T.T
because the dead line is December 2009 :P
PLEASE!!!

NEXT?.?
urm...
wait for my SPM result...
and continue my study....
where to?.?
Form 6 or Government Program...
how about Collage ?.?
nop...
i`m poor ~~ (a lame excuse XD and scold by so many people who heard about this excuse...)

how about part-time job?.?
urm...
i got 1 target... :P
hehehehe~~~
see how's going with the doctor ^^

Last
Wish all my friends Enjoy your 2010 and have a Happy Life
Muackzxz~~