Nothing but just another day

busy busy and busy....

life no only spinning with school, but bunches of non-senses stuff...

miss you guys....

those who always by my sides during high school days....

all of you have started your own life

and all of us just busy with our own life...

miss you guys and miss the days we spend our time together....

i know the it wont back to that time,

but i hope i can see you guys before we move further....

i have no idea what future is,

but at least i know i will still keep those memory underneath...

alone, i already get used to it but still...

fear and nervous...

about the future that i have to face...

wish for those who still studying, wish you good lucks

wish for those who started working, wish you good lucks

wish for those who found a partner, wish for your happiness....

and last, wish for myself...

thanks for the memories....

Bon Odori 2011

Tired tired and tired..... feel nothing but my feet... Orz

2nd time went Bon Odori.... this year was go with school with bunch of yukaga guy and girls... Fun and Fun...

so sad that i eat only Ice-Cream ToT and dance only the first part.... ToT

and so sad that i din meet who i wanted to... ToT

naar~~~ nice memory though, a trip with classmate again ^^

Tsugi Mo ODORIMASYOOO~

Just Orz

仲良しの先輩から，先輩達のクラスの事を聞いた。大部惡い話だった。Orz

最初,その學校に入った時，私達は何も知らなかったので，先輩を見ると，もちろん何のあいさつをしなかった。そして，私達は一部（60%以上だと思う。。。((??????）の先辈に嫌われたそうだ。 Orz

その話を聞くと，私は今のクラスに入るのは，とても幸せだ！！！皆いい友達で，仲良しだからだ~それに，成績のことあまり氣になる ^^ 休みの時，皆いろいろな話をしながら，食事をする，とても樂しいだよ~~~

じゃ，ここまで。

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Orz anyone teach me how to set the system, to type japanese in NORMAL way ToT

duh~~~~~ 2nd test passed, first revision too.... but ORZ PREPARED for Re-Taking the REVISION TEST BAHHHHHH!!!! URH!!!!!! *park bom kick*

even though stopped for fews months, but still....im lazy to write, and no time no switch my lappie on ToT and everyday, bunch of homework waiting for me ToT HELP!!!!!~

guys and buddies, hope you guys always pink in health ^^ good luck and everything ^^

RECENT

these few dayssss..... busy with many different stuffs.... school, school, school.... nothing but school....

Ya, just got back our second test's paper =w= get 97% this time... sort of happy but with a little of disappointed... happy that my result have been improved, but all the mistakes i made... can be SO SILLY!!!!!! *shouting*

GOD DAMN!!! dunno why, but my answer sound so STUPID!!!!

EXAMPLE:

School's going to use the dictionary, please DON'T BUY it...... (ORZ worse, i filled it full with confidence)

OMGD!!!!!!!

just SHAUN even though i quite surprise that i'm 4th in the class (and for the FIRST EXAM, i get 4th, counted from LAST person ORZ)

Anyway, it's GOOD but not GREAT, hope i can do well for next EXAM ToT

BigBang - Tonight

OMG..... Finally.... Stage Performance!!!!!!!!!!

Tonight can be the BEST song in their mini 4th album...(for me personally)

=w= so happy to watch this video, hope u guys enjoy it too =x=

ps: thanks for the one who posted it~~~~~

♥♥♥♥♥ TAEYANG ♥♥♥♥♥

An END is a START

so, my life is about END for a STORY and STARTING a NEW ONE..... but the speed keep increasing... End up many PLAN still waiting in the listed, but almost FORGET all those old PLAN... and KEEP rushing for those NEW PLAN....

ARH...... i had done one FAN-FIC for BIGBANG, and this is just a starting point for BIGBANG fan-fic.... there will be more... i know, but cant help.....my mind cant shut up when i read the lyrics, my brain wont stop function when i watch their MV..... it just.... ended up stucking in my MIND which cause insomnia... @.@

nar.....so the NEXT plan will be the MAGNET series.... ToT it became a series now... ITS BAD THAT I CANT CONTROL MY MIND!!!!!!!! those image keep flowing in my MIND!!!!!!! i even had the background linked them all together!!!!!! so IT WILL BE A SERIES INSTEAD A SEPARATE STORY I HAD THOUGHT FEW MONTHS BEFORE!!!!!!!!!

it had became reality now, i cant help but just done it step by step... it will be ok... i know.... *cried* but it's fun though... and i will have a photo shooting for this series =x= if i really done it well..... so there will be 3   PAIRING in Magnet.... and hope that i can tried my first fantasy background setting.... hope so...*stares at the sky*

I WONT GIVE UP SINCE I GET SO MANY THING FROM DOUJIN WRITING and I REALLY DID ENJOY IT!!!!!!

STORY is nothing but LIFE

Cant Stop but LOVING YOU MORE

this is the only way why i can still BREATHing and live like a normal person....  DREAMING is the only thing i can rely on.... you can say im stupid or what... i doesnt care, since this is the only way i can live with... that's what im....

i know im just a normal girl (properly an ugly girl), but that's why all the negative emotions easily found me... JEALOUS the FIRST... hate myself for that... ALWAYS, but my mind n heart cant keep itself still... and it always bring myself trouble....

as always, my mind will always as clear as crystal when i lying on my bed every night before i slept.... and the mind will keep running out those thought... and drive me into deep black hole... SCARY...

every time when i saw u, there's only one thing came into my mind....

im nothing but a normal person, i cant even dream of myself standing beside you... you're too shine, as shine as the sun which always shone the world with it warmth... cant help but keep falling for you...

Hate YOU, Myself

long time no see, EMO-ing... arh.... tension damn down, since i had first get into the BRAND NEW WORLD, i din have any cell to be emo, BUT today indeed...... haiz....

i hate GUYS who talk much (with all those non-sense stuff....), cant u just keep ur mouth SHUT and leave urself far away from US?!!!!! hate the way u speak out EACH WORD, the way u ACT, they feeling u EXPRESS.... HATE GUYS that's the reason, GUYS with EGO really pissed me off...

damn bloody hell SHUUUUT......

cant u all just keep what u have inside ur mind.... if u really cant keep it, ok, express it but PLEASE mind ur limit, dun u think u will just pissed someone else off?.?  ok, i knew u DAMN proud of urself with THOSE things, but...................... just hold urself carefully k?

i though it should be PRIVATE or sort of SECRET but u will always put some THREAD in front other peoples ask lead them to the SECRET...... 

nar............. i understand what u want.... i want the same thing too... but i had always keep myself inside.... maybe that's why i cant stand others express themselves fully....

i found my shadow from ur back...

that's why i hate you.....

myself 

【Poem】Raining

both my world

filled with tiny rain drops

salty when i tried it with my tongue

arh.....

it's raining

after i change my mind of you....

after i heard what you said...

after i face the truth again...

still the same...

the past and now...

why ?

im always alone at home...

staying alone...

keep my mind off....

with those things made me happy...

but...

mask had break into pieces...

and again...

rainy day....

arh....

i want to shout

Wednesday

Finally, Sunday came... Kuroshitsuji had been released, and planning on continue writing the story... but... Aki had borrow me her ANIME!!!!! 

so regret that i had put the DISC inside the video reader ToT even the story not my type, it's too silly and stupid... but.... it's good to have some time which i can relax not only my body but also mind... but felt so sorry for not complete 10th chapter according to my plan.... 

ARHHHH!!!! i cant imagine the image of negotiation between two guild!!!!!! need some manga to help out... HAIZZZZ.....

since i failed to continue writing it, i will continue it on wednesday.....

hope i can DONE it right......

HOPE!!!!!!!

Same

ok, we are the same.... at least from my observation... we are....

im not very sure from the beginning, thinking why should you avoiding my gaze even though i did the same thing to you... naar... i know the reason for mine act... but of course, not yours...

im lazy thinker, if you guys have any issue with me, please say out... even though i will get hurt or MAD, i will still accept it and think it all around....

dunno what to do, just let the falling pieces fall where they should....

even though we are just opposite each other, we still cant meet each other eyes....

OMYB

GREAT!!!!!! Someone had already bought the book that im going to but next month.... even though i shout at FB and asked my friends to buy me each... but i know that's just a DREAM and REALITY is what i always accept and look for it...

Depress...once again, LONG TIME NO SEE!!!!!!

FS.... cant laugh after she chao... even i had filled my time with BigBang for almost 5 hours plus... but im still depress from what i had just found.... FS!!!

First time thought that POOR is such a SUCKS situation... especially these few months, i really think that even im poor, i have others thing that make me happy.... Friends, DouJin, BigBang, Animation and Manga, Cosplay and such..... arhhhh......... i think today is really SUCKSS....

BOOKS....my life, Story had already became my oxygen which support my life....i cant life without it.....

oh books, i cry cry
you're my all
say goodbye
oh my STORY
don't go go
you're my HEART
say HAI HAI = =a



ps: aki, dont poke me after this ToT

【Poem】最爱的雨天

我很想清醒，但却不想看见现实....
It's nothing but DREAM....
再一次，我逃进了自己编写的故事里
...and i, will be the one who know nothing but DREAM...


呆坐在无人的空屋子
想着的是
身在远处的你
doing nothing but missing you
is the only thing i can do
your smile
will always stay in my mind
my heart

望着无云的天
吹着微凉的风
在静静的午后
想着你想着你
闭上眼睛微笑
i have no dream every night
but i know the reason why
because i had used all of my dream
to miss you every second
after i awake in the morning

靠在浅蓝的墙上
坐在柔软的床上
抱着曲起的双脚
想着我们的距离
melody which fill with my feeling
keep composing inside my mind
without noticing it myself
a melody
filled with both sweet and bitter


“等我”
是你留下的最后一句话
"i will stay here till you back to me again..."
i smile...

if this is dream, please... let me be....

Singing is my LIFE♥

that's not the only thing which is important in my LIFE actually... Of course, LOVE is what i need :)

LOVE, in my own dictionary, included many kinds :)

but that's not what i going to write here....

just want to tell someone, and no one... it's a secret that only kept deep inside my heart.... i don't what is LOVE between people, but i want to make my DREAMs come true... That's what i am doing now... keep writing and writing, non-stop writing and made those DREAMs become REAL as in the story....

LOVE between 2 different people -no matter gender, position, name, age- are splendid as fireworks and remain forever as the time passed....

and WORDs.... is the only thing left that i can still holding it tightly....

ya, i don't know what LOVE is, but still...... i hope that you can find LOVE in my story....

still....DONT know.... i dunno whether or not, i Love u.........

Studying , Happiness-ing

Exam Started !!!!!!!

what to do except do revision or..... even worse.... start from very beginning T.T

NEVER MIND!!!!!!

Get back home after school already 2.00pm plus.... brought myself lunch, then return to home~~ Since someone keep pursuing me about study and i really want to continue my study further (i want JAPANESE!!!!), cant complaint anymore, STUDY harder is the main way T.T

if study alone, it's ok for me... but i will FELL bored... RIGHT~ then i think of something....

Copy all my BigBang songs into pendrive and connect to my CD player.... >///////<>.,<)p i can only study when im alone, so i prefer afternoon (family members all went to work) and morning, 3.00am (im the only one who awake) :)

Studying not SUFFER anymore ^^

when it comes to G-Dragon's Heart Breaker, my hands will dance automatically; while it comes to VI's Strong Baby, i will sing along and stop my work XD; when it comes to TaeYang's Where you at, i will think of his SEXY body and AWESOME dance X///////X~~~~~

these two songs have become my FAVORITE song now and then XD

STUDY with BigBang is Full of HAPPINESS!!!!!!!

Working Day ^o^

just want to ignore someone, then i ask sit ying whether can she drop me any others bus stop... on the way, she said she will pass by the bus stop opposite Carefour, so i get down there... since..... Im hungry, i decided to have my lunch at Ali Maju... XD

bored, while listening to BB song from my Hp play list, i sms Ru~ she said today 2 teachers on-leave :P and ask me to help ~~ we actually sms first... so, i keep rejecting her... because...

1. im wearing school uniform
2. im sweating today = =+
3. WEIRD laar..... and...
4. scare to face you.... ~

but... she called me = =+ i had no choice but answer it... LOLZ~ i still reject her at first... but some Stupid fellow had grab her phone and siad, "give u one minutes, if u din showed up....."

S to the H to the I to the T~ YEAH~~ so? i went = =+

but LUCKILY i went.... that's how i knew that i will mind myself in front of someone....

if i told my friends that im knida shy... they will just think that im joking or fooling around AGAIN~ but that's actually a truth...

nar.... still dunno why is this happens... i have no idea~~

but anyway, from today lesson~

i knew that... some of them will remember me :P and you still there :)

Exam? what the heck is that?!!!

OMG-D!!!!!

SAD!!!!! but..... not much...... when i knew the ABRSM result is updated, i saw had already know that my result was *du----* because my teacher's face showed it... haiz...

i cant escape from it... i knew it~ even though i had escaped once.... but... this Tuesday, i failed to.... The Boss = =a asked me whether i had took the practical exam or not, and asked me to sign for it and get my result....

the first thing i checked was the Grade.... PASS ... ok.... but... the next.... the marks... 117!!!!! GOD DA*du-----*!!!! 3 marks more to Merit!!! what THE!!!

ok... It's my fault!! i knew.... so? SORRY loor... i din practice as mush as, as hard as i could... i keep avoiding the reality... i din take the exam seriously... I DINT!!!! so, SORRY!!!!

haiz... already past... so.... ? what now...

MUET Test of course!!!!! what a coincidence!! all my teammate are anime-fans!!!! LOLZZZ~~ Before the exam had started, we all talked about Anime XD the most relax group.... will be US Absolutely!!!!

Nervous, of course; Panic, Extremely YES!!!!! dunno why.... this exam had pass just one clip of eyes.... OMG~~ damn funny wei... all my point was .... BLUR~ i had keep repeating what i just said during the task A~

= =a *du----* ARHG!!!! i want Band 5 for TEASL (is it how it spell?.? not sure XD) TT.TT

LOLZZZ~~~ pass~~~ pass~~~ pass~~

not even planing to study, this year...... what i had done was...... Enjoying my LIFE!!!!!
LOLZZZ~

Deadline, a deal for myself

ok... I'm such a last-minutes person.... yayaa~~~ Sometimes even left me one day, i will still playing fool around and ignore what i SHOULD do... cant i just get myself out of the abyss so that i can have a more reasonable life (?)... maybe i can said it as a NORMAL life.... nar~ my life is just normal and BORED.... but what made my life different is... i always keep my mind and soul closed and alone...

i know what i should do and what shouldn't... but i just cant hold myself tight and right... with all those excuses and distraction, i can be a MORON and i always be....

closed my ears and eyes.... open my mind and my imagination... open my file and i will continue my story....

Deja Vu

Quite Funny... Today exam gave me a feeling of having the first Add Maths exam back to Form4 XD Just the same tension... and those who really want to score was keep reading (It's maths, what you read for besides of exercise Q.o ), then others who want but not that confidence wearing one type of mask - tension and anxious. Lastly, how about me? I'm always the same, wandering around, playing fool and solving question asked by others... XD

I'm not saying i'm good and of course, i did feel Nervous... But that's how i study and learn especially MATHS... That's why i can change my mind because i'm being asked then i will really think it hard just to solve those question. If you want me to study maths (literally, Read the text book), then i will definitely get mad = =+ when i cant solve one of the question... LOL~

Funny, isn't? But that's what i am :)

HAHA~~ looking forward for the result ^^ Wish me Good Luck <3

Betray

Maybe or not, I had been turn in by someone... Again. Haha, is it a necessary mission to accomplish for being my friend ?.? Or just Me, this human being keep getting on your nerve which cause you commit this kind of plan?.? Who knows~ Since i'm myself but not YOU!

I always be the one who realize something after being told by others = =|| So, I'm sort of slow when it relate to myself is it?.? Maybe you can answer me :) Anyway, Thanks for reminding, telling, asking me ^^

Not that i want to accuse someone, this post is just a way to distress myself, free from Guilty ==a Dunno~

Conclusion: Dunno what our six sense told us whether is truth or not, but i will pay attention from now on....Haiz, thought that i can have a enjoyable Lower 6 = =|| Someone just RUINed it!!! URG~ Thank God T.T